He entered school with vague ambitions of returning to his previous career, that of a grinding forward in the NHL. Although he still would one day like to play professional hockey again, now his long-term goal is to earn a Ph.D. in psychology. His professors say that’s no pipe dream. “He’s an absolutely outstanding student. He handed in a paper that I can freely say is one of the best I’ve gotten in my years of teaching,” says St. Mary’s psychology professor Lucie Kocum, who taught Danton’s research methods course. “He has a self-exacting approach, but he brings this exuberance to class.”
Is it too simplistic, Danton is asked, to assume that he’s enthralled with psychology because of everything he’s been through?
“Yeah,” he says. “But if I were you, I’d put it in the story anyway. I mean, how can you not?”
Mike Danton recalls clearly the moment he hit rock bottom. In April 2004 the fourth-line center for the St. Louis Blues sat crying on the upper bunk of a Santa Clara (Calif.) County jail cell. He was 23 years old and had been charged with a felony less than two weeks earlier. The internal chaos born from his disjointed and dysfunctional childhood had erupted in spectacular fashion. “And now I’m thinking, I’m f——-, I’m never going to be able to play hockey again. And then it’s like, Who’s going to give me a chance to be their husband, to get close to their family?”
'I'm Glad I Went to Prison'
‘I’m Glad I Went to Prison’
Nearly seven years after he tried to arrange a murder, former NHL player Mike Danton is studying psychology and finally piecing his life together. “When Danton jumped off that jailhouse bunk bed with a terry-cloth noose around his neck, it was no halfhearted suicide attempt. ‘I absolutely wanted to die,’ he says. But the strands of towel ripped, unable to support his 190 pounds. Danton landed on the ground and stared at the names he’d written on the wall, tears puddling next to him. He took his survival as a sign. ‘I’m not religious, but I realized that if I was supposed to die that day, I would have.’”
