I’m Never Fine

“As a proponent of transparency, especially one who stands in opposition to the demonization of feeling, I can’t—I won’t—use the word anymore.”
At left, a photograph of author Joseph Lezza. At right, the cover of his book, "I'm Never Fine: Scenes and Spasms on Loss."

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“Disabled people and advocates fear that medically assisted suicide will become a weapon for the state to do away with what capitalism considers unproductive bodies.”

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Kimon de Greef | The New Yorker | February 27, 2023 | 7,676 words

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George Stiffman | Asterisk Magazine | March 9, 2023 | 3,278 words

“China has spent millennia exploring the culinary possibilities of soybean curds. The West has barely scratched the surface.”

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Rachel Heng | Esquire | March 22, 2023 | 5,093 words

“I see, in hindsight, how mastering the ability to see through cards did not seem like an impossible thing to him. He had made seemingly impossible things happen before.”


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