It’s a process. When you have an act that’s polished and you’re in the zone, you can’t wait to get out there. But I’m in a place where I’m backstage going, “I have fucking nothing!” I just feel like a loser. But I’ve also realized I can’t go out and keep doing the same fake racist metajokes anymore. Otherwise 30 years will go by and I’ll be the guy onstage going [imitates Andrew Dice Clay], “Hickory dickory dock!”
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