Missing Hope: A Trio of Miscarriages, and What Happened After

“I have been afraid most days of my life, which is what anxiety is, and the months of this pregnancy have been the most anxious of my life.”

Source: Catapult
Published: May 8, 2018
Length: 14 minutes (3,613 words)

Talent Isn’t Enough When You’re a Fat Ballerina

“What does it mean when your body is your art? Can a thicker brush not make just as beautiful strokes?”

Source: Catapult
Published: May 3, 2018
Length: 9 minutes (2,450 words)

Children of ‘The Cloud’ and Major Tom: Growing Up in the ’80s Under the German Sky

On the 70-year-long presence of American air bases in Germany, and how it has shaped the memory and sense of place of several generations of Germans.

Source: Catapult
Published: Apr 4, 2018
Length: 14 minutes (3,587 words)

The Space Between Us and the Ground Below Us, or: Why I Traveled to Japan

Gaijin find traveling in Japan both daunting and welcoming. Try traveling there black and gay, and yet, for some people, it’s America that feels more foreign.

Source: Catapult
Published: Jan 3, 2018
Length: 17 minutes (4,353 words)

My Editor Was Black

Debut author Naima Coster writes about her experience working with African American editor Morgan Parker on her first novel, Halsey Street, and also touches on the whiteness of publishing, and literary self-determination.

Source: Catapult
Published: Dec 11, 2017
Length: 9 minutes (2,359 words)

Why My Family Takes a Thanksgiving Vow of Silence

A personal essay in which Nina Coomes recalls her family’s tradition of extreme unplugging — no reading, talking, using digital devices — while taking silent retreats at a Catholic seminary each Thanksgiving.

Source: Catapult
Published: Nov 22, 2017
Length: 6 minutes (1,533 words)

What Miyazaki’s Heroines Taught Me About My Mixed-Race Identity

On the wonder and strangeness of occupying a perpetually in-between space.

Source: Catapult
Published: Oct 16, 2017
Length: 9 minutes (2,494 words)

Talking to My Daughter About Charlottesville

Black UVA alum Taylor Harris writes about explaining the racist violence on the Charlottesville campus to her 6-year-old daughter, who hadn’t yet personally encountered racism or ever learned about racist violence. Only a day before the “Unite the Right” protest that led to white supremacists beating Dre Harris and killing Heather Heyer, her daughter and husband had been right there, buying ice cream. Harris wrestles with informing her daughter, because she doesn’t want to rob her of her innocence.

Source: Catapult
Published: Aug 23, 2017
Length: 7 minutes (1,903 words)

True Love Will Find You: My Afternoon in Daniel Johnston’s Dining Room

During his punk band’s first tour, a high school musician visits the home of underground artist Daniel Johnson, one of his musical heroes, and someone who also suffers from manic depression. The experience is the realization of a dream, and it gave the author perspective that stayed with him for years.

Source: Catapult
Published: Jul 19, 2017
Length: 14 minutes (3,577 words)

How to Write Iranian-America, or The Last Essay

Porochista Khakpour reflects on her desire to write — at first about anything other than Iranian-America. Deeply conflicted about speaking from her perspective as an Iranian-American, she says, “Remind yourself that when the performance is honest two things happen: The essay will feel like it’s killing you and the ending will not be what you thought it might be. Learn to respect more than resent those parallel planes of living and the rendering of living.”

Source: Catapult
Published: May 18, 2017
Length: 15 minutes (3,944 words)